momoe213

So first I make a mistake, and I lose someone I love, a supposed bestfriend and another. Then I try to protect one of my best friends from rape, and I lose her as a friend too. And then because of the accident were poor as hell. So I get a job, doing college (6 classes) and dont have time for anything. I lose almost all of my friends except for MAYBE 1 or 2, but even then I dont talk to them. Now my older sister does nothing but cuss at me, try to hit me, and get my parents to hate me. Thats literally all she does, she doesnt even say Hi. She says things such as "you f*cking no low life hypocrite b*tch, why the f*ck are you still alive,

I had a dream about her.. she left me... what im going through isnt exactly heartbreak.. its a bit different, its when you love someone and theyre taken away from you, to never see, talk, or hear from them again.. for 2 years, and the entire time theyre suffering.. I couldnt stop thinking about her today, about us, how she feels what could possibley be going on through her head.. if she thought of me, if she'll wait like we promised... but most of all im afraid of her hurting herself, every moment every hour feels sickening.. ive never had it this bad before.. ive never needed someone this bad .. I love you, hang in there On a plus side, m

I woke up this morning feeling hopeless.. miserable.. completely deprived of the one thing that gave me life.. I had to accept the fact Hailey was gone.. Im so stupid!!! How could I let this happen!? How could i be so stupid and naive as to not see that all of this could end if she got caught.. the worst part is that... she has to suffer.. alone and by herself.. without my helping hand.. theres nothing i can do.. i never wanted her to suffer through the pain i went through.. i never wanted any of this.. im fucking retarded.. i cant believe i let this happen... im so sorry Hailey... and i know thatll never be enough or suffice the neverending